The Sky Might Fall.

On me: Limited Edition Electric pink Juicy Tube, borrowed Rock&Smith sweater, and no pride what-so-ever! HAHAHA.

I hate crying.  It's hurts emotionally and physically.  I sum enough courage just to be your friend, but when it feels like I'm not even important anymore, it's pushing it.  It's no one's fault, people move on.  Certain things mean more to others and clearly less to the remaining.  My mind is made out of millions of confetti pieces that have been thrown into a gust of wind.  Obviously I'm not in a state where I can make judgements on my decisions.  If I could tell of everything in my mind, I would, but I do what I do so no one gets hurt but me.  That's not my intent.  My intent is to be selfless, but I hate bottling things up.  I've always spoke what's on my mind whether in a blunt fashion or indirectly.  I think I just wanted to let you know the reason why it's so much harder is because it's hard to push away the person I have had feelings for. Not because of your exterior, but because I know who you really are.  At least I believe I do. From your quirks to being able to understand me.  I try my best to be the best friend I could be and put myself in a position of what a friend would do.  A month ago when I was depressed, I told myself I'll live my life whether or not you're in it, but looking at you being more happy with others distracted me from my goals.  I don't think I can actually move on without you knowing and I feel like the only possible way I can let go is to not be friends anymore(Not that I want that to happen). So when you do read this, you'll know, and finally I can be liberated.  You'll know why from day one put you on my pedestal.  Don't worry though, that pedestal is gone, you still major in my world, but for different reasons.  Even though it's hard for me not to see you "everyday to every other day" it does help.  Actually it helps a lot.  You're a nomad, and so am I. No kidding, how many people have we been through?! LOL.  I guess in the end, I just hope I don't lose you as a friend, or that I won't let myself lose you as a friend. You're definitely a keeper. As corny as I am, I don't know how anyone puts up with it. HAHAHA. OH WOW. I can't believe I just typed all that.  WOOT woot. I'm FINALLY DONE!  Dooohhnng Stop ME, I'm going to rule the world. I think I'm ready to let go.  At least for now! =)